Friday, September 23, 2005
im feeling very down.
i just wanna let it all out,but even if i do,there'll be no one there to listen to me.
so whats the point, really?
but i really need to get this out of my mind.if not someday i'll just break down and die.
i feel damn trapped.like i totally dont get any appreciation for the things i do.and basically all i do is get pissed off with the world.for one.
im almost like dead with my friends.and no tkpy im not angry with you anymore.i just dont understand whats so nice about me thats nice to tease and insult.yes i know that you dont really mean what you say.but since you guys can actually tell me you'd cry when you get teased,i dont see why i'd NOT cry if i get teased.afterall im more likely to cry than you would =X and this thing would take quite long for me to forget so for now you can just stop bugging me.thanks alot.
argh i wanna let this all out but its hard.considering the number of people who'd read this.i cant just go around saying this right?hai.i really feel so..down.its like these few days really horrible things have been happening to me.if its not me being scolded it'd be me falling out with my friends.
sometimes i wonder if its my fault?cause it cant possibly their fault right.but thats just me i guess.im too impulsive and i yell at everyone.
right now my mum is yelling at me.telling me that im gonna be banned from using the internet if there's no need to.
stop treating me like a little kid,forever scolding me and thats all you do.
my parents dont respect me at all.really.
like which kid doesnt use the internet?
some really guai kias that i noe of can use it.but i CANT.
thats crap isnt it?
but i know why.
their parents respect them.
mine dont.
get it.
she totally doesnt give a damn as to what i think.
sorry for venting my anger.
but i need to get this out.
my ****** is here again.
friggin shit.
bye.
PS dont bother to console me.
i'll stay with YOU.
>9:30 PM
